Quietly Sipping My Lemonade.

 Having had time to reflect a LOT on what prompted me to write my first post, I’ve realized that having this blog outlet is LIFE…even if little to no one reads it…it’s my outlet where I can say how I feel and writing it out is better than saying it and I can keep details like names and such discreet but still have that release and breathe. Sigh. Let it go in the wise works of Queen Elsa. 

I know some of my word choices were not wise in the work place even if the context was not totally given, I will not share that part as it will be deemed “making excuses” and the fact will still remain, I should have refrained from the exact phrase I did in my position. So I may not be able to take the words back and I may have been wrong, but I have to show myself grace and mercy and know in my heart the intent behind my words, but also do much much better in the workplace environment. 

I don’t need to tell anyone this or the other changes I know I need to make and work through. I only need my action plan for ME! At the end of the day I need to prove these thing can be done by me, for me. While others will see these changes and growth and benefit from them, I don’t have the announce them or how I will go about making them happen that’s for me. (They will never read this either). 

I also found noteworthy in my reflections that I definitely don’t show myself enough self care/love but I try to give it so freely to others only to have it thrown back in my face over the most menial things. So I can continue to show those things to those I walk beside on a high level only and show them to myself on a much deeper level. I’m going to screw up still so I will need it!! 

I’m excited about taking it down a notch and thereby taking it up several notches…I know it will be a contestant work in progress (that’s the beauty of life..,continued growth and learning), but I’m ready for it now!  

Am I still hurt and angry about words spoken to me…hell yes! But I will not let it define me or cause me to waiver from the values I have and the integrity I wish to display!  I will use that to motivate me to be strong, resilient and prosper despite all that work against this. I’m ultimately in control of my fate as far as how I react, implement and grow from this! 

Still straightening my crown quietly on my own. 

~Squeeze The Day